The easiest way to waste time is to have no goal.
I was inspired by the story of Injap (Edgar Sia II), the owner and founder of Mang Inasal, a company of which 70 percent he has sold to Jollibee Foods Corp. for 3 billion pesos. He is 32 now.
As I read his story, I was suddenly reminded of my dreams, of having my own business, of helping create jobs for the many jobless pinoys, especially here in the rural areas.
Suddenly, I felt a sudden guilt for the time wasted for the past year, 1 year and 1 month to be exact, from the time that I resigned from my first company.
For the past year, I didn't know what to do. I've been practicing my english by reading some books, practicing for job interviews, passing resumes and going to interviews. Somehow, during those times, I really don't feel like getting a job is the right thing for me. To be honest, killing myself is one of the things that crossed my mind because I felt trapped in a world where I can't fit in. Not the trap that you get when you are locked behind bars or put in a cage,but like being at the middle of the sea, or at the middle of the dessert...you're totally free, but the horizon is your inevitable boundary, and you don't know which way to go. I was clueless, and not sure of what I really want at that time.
Now, I don't experience those feelings anymore. So far, I like learning the simple intricacies of our family business. I may say that my commitment for the past few months is partial and I handle little responsibilities, but now I really feel I could help and I could make a difference.
It's funny how we do stupid things unconsciously. Things that you only realize after going through all the undesirable experiences and after wasting precious time. And there are only few moments where your have a glimpse of the light, your paradigms shift, and your past beliefs crumble into pieces.
Yes, it was a confusing world after College. Suddenly, things are different. the game is different, rules are different and goals are different. What will I do now that no one will give me grades, no one to set projects with considerable deadlines, or now that there won't be graduation for the next 4 to 5 decades(if you get lucky)?
My main point is that I missed to set a goal, because I didn't know(up until now) what is important to me or what are the things that I like to pursue. I just have to accept that at that time... I did not know.
The most important thing at the moment is having long term goals while always being at the present.I missed this feeling of having something to plan at night and looking forward to waking up in the morning. Thank you God for the opportunities!
